As most of you know, I just had a hospital stay and have been resting, recuperating, and renewing. Since the beginning of April, my life has been upended and focused entirely on symptom management.
Full transparency: the stay was a psychiatric crisis hold, due to something that is probably acute psychosis. (No full diagnosis yet)
I knew I needed greater care than my regular wellness and therapeutic routines. So, I took a huge and scary risk and admitted myself to an inpatient program.
I’m still in limbo. I don’t know what exactly caused this episode, as the hospital provided no care and treatment.
I’ve faced setbacks with no available psychiatrists in my area, hospital record issues, and more. Each week requires hours of phone calls, follow ups with practitioners, testing, etc.
There’s a lot going on. But, one thing is for sure—I was burned out to the point of psychotic symptoms (delusions, hallucinations, etc). Although this hit suddenly, I’m certain high stress over the past few months contributed to it. If I don’t reduce this stress, my condition will deteriorate.
I need to prioritize stress-reduction
It’s forced me to take a good look at what stressors I have in my life and how I’m not fully meeting my needs. This means a lot of things with Uncover Your Joy will change.
First, I’m not disappearing or leaving you empty-handed. For every resource and offering I provide and am about to close down, I will be sharing additional similar resources from other practitioners.
My focus will be shifting away from peer support and direct survivor services. Instead, I’ll be prioritizing educational consultations with mental health providers. I recognize this means less direct support from me to you, but it also means I will make a greater impact (on a systemic level) in helping survivors.
Instead of helping a few survivors a year, I’ll be helping many therapists and organizations become more trauma-informed. This impacts far more people.
Financial stress is my biggest challenge and directly supporting survivors isn’t a sustainable source of income. Because my work isn’t covered by insurance, there’s no way for enough survivors to afford options that also allow me to support my very basic cost of living.
I also frequently deal with triggering subjects and neglect to make space to process my own newly uncovered traumas, as I’ve been so focused on helping others heal.
So, what is changing?
I’ll be completely closing my 1-on-1 survivor services (coaching and peer support). I do have 4 session spots open right now for coaching, if you need to book one before I permanently close this service. Reply directly to this email to book or check out more info here. 1-on-1 services completely close May 20th.
Rachel Grant https://www.rachelgrantcoaching.com/services/
The Unbreakable Ruth: https://unbreakableruth.co.uk/
Mary Toolan: https://scapegoat-child-recovery.mykajabi.com/
Trace: https://athrivelife.org/ (Focusing on grief and loss trauma)
I’ll be focusing on my offerings that teach mental health professionals and organizations about dissociative identity disorder and transgender health needs. I’ll also be designing resources that both therapists and those living with DID can benefit from.
Know a therapist, psychiatrist, or organization that would love this training? Please direct them here!
Facebook Group & Social Media
I’ll be closing my Facebook group “Find Joy and Peace After Abuse”
I’ll be focusing on Instagram and YouTube, not as much on Facebook (as their algorithm has essentially made pages that don’t pay for adds completely unseen. I will still be posting, but I may respond to comments and messages slower). I’ll be making IG and FB posts every other day, instead of every day. YouTube will stay biweekly.
My social media will focus more on education and positivity, and less on joy-related journaling. Larger systemic changes need to happen before collective joy can exist and I want to play a key part in those changes.
Prosperity Path Program & Quiz
I’ll be closing The Prosperity Path Program (you can still purchase it here for now, though). Anyone who has already purchased it, or buys it before closing, will have access to all the content via Google Drive or another option though! It’s just the course website, and new members, that will be closing down. In the future, I hope to create smaller and more targeted eCourses.
I will be stopping my Prosperity Path quiz and the followup emails as well. This and the program will close May 5th.
Blogs & Emails
I won’t be updating blogs on my website (at least for a bit). Transcripts/captions can still be found on YouTube. I will not be deleting my blog, though!
I may pause or stop my regular emails (or, just change the frequency). I’m not totally sure yet!
Additional notes & how to contact me about this
Lastly, these changes are also coming about because of dissociative identity disorder fusion. When I came into existence after all alters combined, I stepped into the businesses Arien and Bael had set up. Many parts of them I enjoy, but in some ways I feel trapped in jobs and roles I didn’t choose. Having autonomy is so important for healing and wellbeing, so I need to reclaim and rediscover my own unique path.
I recognize that these are a lot of changes and can cause grief, disappointment, excitement, anxiety, and more. There’s a lot here—and I’m feeling it too.
So, if you have any questions or concerns, you can contact me directly by commenting or sending me an email. 💖
I truly appreciate every moment I’ve spent with you all, as Calion (or as Arien before fusion). I’m not disappearing, I’m just shifting and I want to welcome you along for the ride.
With so much love,
P.S. For anyone also following my dog tarot deck, nothing is changing there! The project will still be completed in the next few months. There’s just a slight delay due to this hospitalization and crisis.