Do you struggle with chronic suicidal feelings? I have almost every day since age 8, and I’m not alone in that. It’s a common challenge those of us who have survived child abuse face—especially when we live with conditions like borderline personality disorder or...
Final fusion was one of the most empowering and transformative experiences of my life…yet it has a TON of stigma in the online dissociative identity disorder (DID) community! Some people see it as alter death, others as the only path to healing (not true), and some...
What the heck does dissociative identity disorder final fusion feel like? Is it like being co-conscious with your alters? Is it scary or traumatic? Does it feel like alter death? How did it help with dissociative amnesia, and was it a helpful way of treating...
Just last week, someone asked me a bunch of questions so they could get more information before writing a character with dissociative identity disorder. Having lived with it since I was 5 (and having the unique perspective of going through final fusion/integration), I...
5 years ago, I reported my abuser to my college. Here’s what happened when I filed that Title IX report. (Trigger warning: sexual ,physical, and abuse; gaslighting—there are some graphic, heavy parts in this blog) She was my best friend for years. We went to high...
There was a viral post that went around Facebook a few months ago, about how it was harmful to say “Trauma is not your fault, but healing is your responsibility.” That phrase had always rubbed me the wrong way, but I didn’t know why until I was a part of that...
